I’ve never been one for New Year’s resolutions.
Especially not now. You see, I completed mine. It was to go one year without Diet Coke. I did it. I thought about drinking one every once and awhile, but didn’t.
Drinking Diet Coke wasn’t ruining my life; I just wanted to prove that I could do it. I wanted to show myself that I could not do something for a year.
But yesterday, I had a moment. I was packing my bag for work and I realized that I haven’t done a thing this year.
I put off so much.
I said no to so much.
I let so many calls go to voicemail and settled for “good enough” in most areas of my life.
So, what are my hi-lights of this year? Besides not drinking soda? I broke my wrist and lost a pregnancy. I got through both of these things with grace. But, they both happened to me, I didn’t make them happen.
I haven’t done a thing in 2019.
As I nervously jolt into the new year I thought of that Tim McGraw song “Live Like You Were Dying. It’s from forever ago. Yes, 2004 was forever ago.
It’s so cheesy, but I love this song. It tells the story of, well, living like you were dying. The lyrics are sentimental and powerful:
“I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I’d been denying”
That’s the energy I want in 2020. I’ve put off so much. Here are the things I want to bring into the New Year:
- More photos. You can never take too many photos, especially with loved ones.
- Saying yes. Yes to friends, yes to risks. I let my friendships fall to the wayside constantly, and that has to change.
- Writing more. I say this every year. Maybe when the ball drops it’ll stick.
And that’s it. I want more out of live.
I almost died. I deserve to take the biggest slice of cake.
What are your goals in 2020?
I can’t live life as if I were dying… if I was on the way out, I sure as hell wouldn’t go to work!
Thank you for reading!