Last year I wrote a post called “If Not Now, When?”. It’s about how the years have passed on and I haven’t changed. It’s about how I wanted to do more with this blog and the only thing standing in my way was me.
Well, I wrote 96 posts this year. I had brand deals. I made some affiliate and ad income. I feel really proud about where I’ve taken this blog. The only difference between this year and the last was that I sat down and wrote.
I feel good about 2021 as a whole. I’m proud of myself. I feel like I did more than just get through it. If you just got through it, that’s more than enough.
I’m 27 and I have a new lease on life. Something inside me changed this year.
I’ve been thinking about big bangs.
I watched a family member go through a breakup and move across the country. A big bang.
I watched my friend lose her brother, and leave her job to pursue her art. A big bang.
I was always waiting for these little things to change the fiber of who I was. I thought if I drank more water or had more money or exercised more I would become who I wanted to be.
I was always waiting on more.
I just needed my own big bang.
I was monkey-barring my way through life. I had settled into this mindset that certain things I wanted were out of reach.
And then I had my daughter. My big bang.
She made me feel good enough. She made me feel worthy of all things good. I never want her to feel limited. That’s how I’ve felt as an adult, limited.
I’m going into 2022 with infinite opportunity. I hope you do the same.