Let me remember this night. Simple thoughts at 10:46 p.m. Nothing extaordinary, nothing special. I had a good day. Most days are. My cat is asleep in the chair, my husband is asleep on the couch. I’m listening to Yoke Lore and I feel at peace. I cried for an hour in therapy because I was so frustrated that I had to care for myself. Resentful that I had to connect with friends, exercise, eat well, express gratitude and honesty to feel ‘safe’ and okay. Sometimes I wish I could be on autopilot all the time. But, self care is important and human and necessary. I listen to my needs and I’m able to give myself the love I deserve. What a beautiful thing.
I’m grateful to be participating in my life. I’m grateful that I have the opportunity to be better everyday. This is serenity.